~~Kimberly~~

Good Days

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 03:30:54 GMT

Today was an AWESOME DAY! I don't know what was so great, but I wasn't stressed for a change! lol

I've made some decisions recently:
I'm going to high light my hair - RED!!! (Yea!!!)
I'm going to let Nate's mom do it (shes a professional) when we go to Ohio to "Meet the Parents" after christmas! (Yikes, nervous about that)

Nate told me he loved me a week or so ago! I was NOT expecting that ANYTIME soon, but it was a nice surprise...

I do, however, think that was my issue the other night:
My feelings for him were getting pretty strong, and it freaks me out...
Cuz I don't tend to have the best taste in guys...at least in guys that will stick around. So getting attached is a lil nerve racking...

But once that was all out in the open, the relationship totally changed...I tell him EVERYTHING now. We are sooo much more "FUTURE focused" (SCARY btw!) He talks about what we'll do when he gets outta the airforce in THREE years...which doesnt even seem to phase me (freak me out) - the fact it doesnt freak me out kinda freaks me out thu lol - I really feel very confident in this relationship...I really feel like if he isn't "the one" then hes definitely gonna be around a LONG time! In all honesty though, I really think he MIGHT just be the one...

It's all so scary, and so exciting! lol And every time I go to work and talk to the girls about him, whether its something funny that happened when I was with him, or a fight we had, whatever, they make comments about how we act like we are married...and it sounds kinda nice :)

**sigh**
Welcome to the world of illogical female thoughts and emotions!

Welp...

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 04:06:15 GMT

It's been forever and a day since I use this thing....
There's a million things to say...yet I have no idea what to say?!
Crazy, I know.

I had a serious melt down a couple days ago *might have been a week by now - probably has been*

I just feel apart.

Work is horrible.
My manager is the most inhuman person alive.
She's unbelievable.

I get sooo upset just being at work (whether she is working that day or not) because being in that building makes me think about her, and that is enough to ruin a day.

Left my church.
That place has serious issues.
They drive so many people away being the way they are.
And now I'm one of them.

I've been going to Aaron's church lately. Seaford Baptist.
Cyrous would probably rather I'd chosen somewhere else...
But that is a whole other entry...*one I wont be posting-not my story to tell*

But its a good church.
They care about people.
They are so warm, so open, so full of love,
And they don't know anything about me...

But still, I'm totally stressed out.
School sucks.
Work sucks.

And to make matters worse, I melt down.
I question everything I am.
Who I am. What I am. What I believe. What I dont.
Everything!

Thats the worst feeling I know.
Looking at the mirror ...and seeing a complete stranger.
I just freaked out.

So I start making calls.
Trying to find someone to help me remember who I use to be...
Someone who knows me enough to calm me down.
Someone who can give me some kinda perspective.
I called Phillip - He didn't want to talk.

So I started driving.
I drove down jefferson to JClyde
I drove back to denbigh

I turned down lucas creek -
And just tried to remember the days with Ben
When I still knew who I was...
When things made sense.

Drove home - PRAYING Ben would be online.
Thinking maybe he could say something to help.
Or just listen,
Let me vent...anything.
But he was away...Out of town.

So I just gave up.
I went to bed and cried my eyes out
Prayed - still not sure why I was doing so
And after a few hours...
I managed to fall asleep.

The days passed by, I calmed down, but I have a feeling that this night will repeat itself until I resolve whatever caused it...
But...
WHAT CAUSED IT???

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 03:36:13 GMT

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Yea!

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 04:05:43 GMT

I heard from Johnny!
He made it to boot camp :-D
He's okay, so I dont have to keep worrying!
Soooo relieved

Got his address down in GA now,
So I can write him while he's down there...
Help keep his spirits up
While the drill sargents try to kill him :(
Cuz they definitely will have amble reasons
*sigh*

Miles still a no show?
Dont care much anymore..

Phillip and I have gotten a lot closer.
Still a weird relationship...
But at least I can count on him
Cant say that about everyone you meet, can ya?

Ben's back in town.
Talked to him but havent seen him...
Hoping to though, just for old times sake

Still havent heard from Russell?
Gonna have to whoop some *WHAT*
lol

Really good mood lately
Couldnt be happier...unless life suddenly became perfect lol
Totally excited
GREAT family news

*YOU WILL HEAR LOTS MORE ABOUT THIS IN THE FUTURE*
Those that know are meant to know, the rest of you will find out in due time ;-)
Nuttin personal to ya'll

Bad taste

Mon, 17 May 2004 03:35:05 GMT

I obviously have HORRIBLE judgement...I cannot see someone whose motives aren't pure...at least until I've gotten close enough for that realization to break my heart.

I trust too much, too easily.....

Lesson learned?

I sure hope so....

Dream

Fri, 07 May 2004 05:48:11 GMT

Well...today was interesting. I had my last exam, i did really well i think! Im pretty confident! Yea for me....

Drove around for a while, did some errands. It was a GORGEOUS day! I love this weather....

Hung out with Phillip for a lil while this evening...thats always nice. I really miss him, strange as he is... lol
Gotta luv him *shrugs*

Didnt work...YEA!

Work tomorrow (well today technically...lol) Then I gotta do a favor for my favorite Pimp/Diva and watch some babies. (What was he thinkin? Me with children? Weird mix eh?) lol So second nature, its weird....

I dreamt that I had a friend that past away, and they left their two year old son to ME! The entire dream was about finding out that the friend who had died (which according to my dream it had been a year since he died) had a will no one knew about. They found it after puttin the kid in the foster system (and he went thru like 6 homes within that year). So they called me, and told me that the friend (who was an artist in NY) left everything he owned, his artwork, his place, EVERYTHING (including his son) to me!
And I was given a choice....they could pay me what they sold his stuff for, and I could sign custody of the child to the state of NY and walk away....or I could raise him.....

**THEN** it fast-forwarded to later on: I chose to raise the child. I apparently disappeared for a month or two to NY to work out all the legal stuff, and get things settled, and then I brought him back home with me. (This is where the second half of the dream starts. I went to church, it was like a sunday evening service, and I overhear everyone talkin about me, and the child. Saying how crazy I was to take him, how much they disapproved of my decision, yada yada...(he was in the nursery).
I walked by everyone, ignored them, until I got to where Cyrous, Josh, Nathan, Melissa G, Ryan & Heather, were all standing. Chris (my brother-in-law was close by) Heather was saying how crazy I was, and how crazy id always been, very upset with me, everyone else was pretty quiet. (she didnt say any of this to my face mind you)
I walked up, kinda laughed it all off. I looked at Josh (who has known me my WHOLE life, hes such a sweetheart, love that dude) and he looked so worried. So I said "I know everyone thinks I am crazy for doing this (looked around at everyone, stopped for a second at Heather)...and I dont really disagree. (looked at Cyrous, cuz i knew if anyone might get me about this part he would) But I couldnt walk away!" Kinda got choked up a lil, paused. And Pam Cubas walks up (mother of two, for those who dont know)
I continued: "And he must thing hes living with a maniac, cuz the first night I brought him home I wouldnt leave his side, I just sat there staring at him watching him fall asleep. I couldnt leave, I couldnt move. I just sat there looking at him, like if I stopped looking he wouldnt be there anymore. Hed be gone..." (had to stop for a moment right here too) "I just sat there the whole night, so mesmerized by him, and I just bawled. I just cried my eyes out, so scared, so worried, so happy, sooo just full of feelings Id never felt before...." *really got teary-eyed here*
I looked at Cyrous, and he was a lil choked up too, and Josh/MelissaG/Pam & Nathan even looked a lil emotional. (heather and ryan were still lookin at me like I was on crack lol)
THEN, the best part, Chris (brother in law) had left to go get him from the nursery, and comes into the sanctuary with him. He came running over to me, and wrapped his lil arms around me...and I just sat there kneeling on the floor holdin this lil boy, and I remember I felt so content...so peaceful. It was so weird. I woke up kinda sad it was just a dream....I felt so complete in the dream, so full in my spirit. I cant wait to be a mom one day, I know that this wont even COMPARE to the emotions that it will REALLY bring out, this was just a lil dream....I actually woke up kind of sad thu...

Time for Humor

Sun, 02 May 2004 20:38:33 GMT

"As I stood there looking at the beautiful waterfall, I wondered how many other people had stood there, and how many had candy corn "teeth" sticking out between their lips like I did."

It makes me mad when I go to all the trouble of having Marta cook up about a hundred drumsticks, then the guy at Marineland says, "You can't throw chicken to the dolphins. They eat fish." Sure they eat fish, if that's all you give them. Man, wise up.

There is one question that probably drives just about every vampire crazy: "Oh, do you know Dracula?"

To me, clowns aren't funny. In fact, they're kinda scary. I've wondered where this started, and I think it goes back to the time I went to the circus and a clown killed my dad.

If a kid asks where rain comes from, I think a cute thing to tell him is "God is crying." And if he asks why God is crying, another cute thing to tell him is "Probably because of something you did."

I guess of all my uncles, I liked Uncle Cave Man the best. We called him Uncle Cave Man because he lived in a cave and because sometimes he'd eat one of us. Later on we found out he was a bear.

Sometimes when I feel like killing someone, I do a little trick to calm myself down. I'll go over to the person's house and ring the doorbell. When the person comes to the door, I'm gone, but you know what I've left on the porch? A jack-o'-lantern with a knife in the side of its head with a note that says "You." After that, I usually feel a lot better, and no harm done.

I'd like to see a nature film where an eagle swoops down and pulls a fish out of a lake, and then maybe he's flying along, low to the ground, and the fish pulls a worm out of the ground. Now that's a documentary!

I remember that fateful day when Coach took me aside. I knew what was coming. "You don't have to tell me," I said. "I'm off the team, aren't I?" "Well," said Coach, "you never were really on the team. You made that uniform you're wearing out of rags and towels, and your helmet is a toy space helmet. You show up at practice and then either steal the ball and make us chase you to get it back, or you try to tackle people at inappropriate times." It was all true what he was saying. And yet, I thought, something is brewing inside the head of this Coach. He sees something in me, some kind of raw talent that he can mold. But that's when I felt the handcuffs go on.

"Once, when I got lost in the woods, I was afraid that eventually I might have to eat Tippy. But finally I found my way home, and I was able to put Tippy back in the refrigerator with my other sandwiches."

If I was being executed by injection, I'd clean up my cell real neat. Then, when they came to get me, I'd say, "Injection? I thought you said 'inspection.'" They'd probably feel real bad, and maybe I could get out of it.

Sometimes you have to be careful when selecting a new nickname for yourself. For instance, let's say you have chosen the nickname "Fly Head." Normally, you would think that "Fly Head" would mean a person who has beautiful swept-back features, as if flying through the air. But think again. Couldn't it also mean "having a head like a fly"? I'm afraid some people might actually think that.

Mom always told me I could be whatever I wanted to be when I grew up, "within reason." When I asked her what she meant by "within reason," she said, "You ask a lot of questions for a garbage man."

If there was a big gardening convention, and you got up and gave a speech in favor of fast-motion gardening, I bet you would get booed right off the stage. They're just not ready.

"When I think of all the arguments Marta and I have had, I realize how silly most of them were. And it makes me wonder why she wanted to argue over such stupid things. I think I'll go ask her."

Whenever you read a good book, it's like the author is right there, in the room, talking to you, which is why I don't like to read good books.

As I felt the soft cool mud squish between my toes, I thought, Man, these are not very good shoes!

Before a mad scientist goes mad, there's probably a time when he's only partially mad. And this is the time when he's going to throw his best parties.

I think the mistake a lot of us make is thinking the state-appointed psychiatrist is our "friend."

I'm just guessing, but probably one of the early signs that your radarscope is wearing out is something I call "image fuzz-out." But I've never even seen a radarscope, so I wouldn't totally go by what I've just said here.

Instead of putting a quarter under a kid's pillow, how about a pinecone? That way, he learns that "wishing" isn't going to save our national forests.

If you're a cowboy, and you're dragging a guy behind your horse, I bet it would really make you mad if you looked back and the guy was reading a magazine.

If you're a boxing referee, it's probably illegal to wear a bow tie that spins or changes colors.

If trees could scream, would we be so cavalier about cutting them down? We might, if they screamed all the time, for no good reason.

Life is a constant battle between the heart and the brain. But guess who wins. The skeleton.

If you ever fall off the Sears Tower, just go real limp, because maybe you'll look like a dummy and people will try to catch you because, hey, free dummy.

If you go parachuting, and your parachute doesn't open, and your friends are all watching you fall, I think a funny gag would be to pretend you were swimming.

"Isn't it funny how one minute life can be such a struggle, and the next minute you're just driving real fast, swerving back and forth across the road?"

I think Superman and Santa Claus are actually the same guy, and I'll tell you why: Both fly, and both have a beard.

One way I think you can tell if you have a curse on you is if you open a box of toothpicks and they all fly up and stick in your face.

To me, truth is not some vague, foggy notion. Truth is real. And, at the same time, unreal. Fiction and fact and everything in between, plus some things I can't remember, all rolled into one big "thing." This is truth, to me.

"In weightlifting, I don't think sudden, uncontrolled urination should automatically disqualify you."

Instead of a welcome mat, what about just a plain mat and a little loudspeaker that says "welcome" over and over again?

The memories of my family outings are still a source of strength to me. I remember we'd all pile into the car - I forget what kind it was - and drive and drive. I'm not sure where we'd go, but I think there were some trees there. The smell of something was strong in the air as we played whatever sport we played. I remember a bigger, older guy we called "Dad." We'd eat some stuff, or not, and then I think we went home. I guess some things never leave you.

If you define cowardice as running away at the first sign of danger, screaming and tripping and begging for mercy, then yes, Mister Brave Man, I guess I am a coward.

If you ever teach a yodeling class, probably the hardest thing is to keep the students from just trying to yodel right off. You see, we build to that.

Sun, 02 May 2004 05:18:28 GMT

Worked from 4pm till like 1230, dead tired

Lots goin on, last week of school...exams, yippee

Burnt, went to the tannin bed again, been a while since the last time, im fried like some chicken and i didnt even put on the grease/oil (however you prefer ur chicken fried) *shrugs*

Dead tired, goin to bed. I'll elaborate on some stuff later thu im sure

Fill This Out

Sat, 01 May 2004 15:14:10 GMT

Post your answers as a comment if you feel the urge to fill this out for me guyz
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. What am I obsessed with?
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger,weaker, or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
35. Why did you add me to your friend's list?
36. Why do you keep me on your list?
37. How much do you read my posts? (10% of the time - 100% of the time):
38. Which of my icons do you like best?
39. Is there anything you wish I would filter from you?
40. Would you like to remove me from your friends list?
41. What do you enjoy most about my posts?
42. Is there anything about me that you'd like to know?
43. Do you think about me beyond the LJ realm (i.e.: have you ever randomly thought about me while NOT being on LJ)?
44. Tell me what you think of me in the following terms- Physically, Mentally, emotionally..
if you love me...

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 03:32:56 GMT

Theme songs of your life by eponine
your name?
love song:	truly, madly, deeply - savage garden
depressing song:	empty - the cranberries
party song:	crocodile rock - elton john
what-the-hell-ever song:	walk this way - aerosmith
your life	lose yourself - eminem

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WOW Lindz

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 05:38:02 GMT

What is your name?: Kimberly

Are you named after anyone?: No

What's your screename?: AIM: KRF84

Would you name a child of yours after you?: My middle name yea, i plan on using that

If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Keith, im for real!

If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: oooh, hard one...ummmm, Abbie maybe? I dunno, I like Kimberly thu....

Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: Yea, especially my last name...GO FIGURE? People are dumb, what can ya do?!

Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: I'd drop it REGARDLESS! Counting to the day I get rid of this name! Soooo not keepin it! Rose will stay, FISH IS GONE!

Basics
Your gender:: Female

Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight

Single?: Nope

If not, do you want to be?: Depends on the day :-P

Birthdate:: March 22nd 1984

Your age: 20

Age you act:: Depends on the day lol

Age you wish you were:: 5

Your height:: 5'4

Eye color:: blue...green sometimes (goin with Lindz on this one)

Happy with it?: Wish they were MORE green :(

Hair color:: brown w/red highlights

Happy with it?: Yes, love my hair color

Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: Righty

Your living arrangement:: Home, parents, eh fun fun

Your family:: Dad, Mom, Kevin & Denise: Shawn/Miranda/Travis, Karen & Chris: BAXTER TOO!!

Have any pets?: Not personally, dad has dogs...

Whats your job?: Sell stuff at BRU (Babies R Us)

Piercings?: just ears...for now..

Tattoos?: Nope

Obsessions?: Music (ditto lindz)

Addictions?: Music (going with lindz again) also Dr Pepper

Do you speak another language?: not well!

Have a favorite quote?: Lots, ask me

Do you have a webpage?: Sometimes

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: I sure as heck try to!

Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: TOO much so at times...

Do you have any secrets?: Of course

Do you hate yourself?: not generally...

Do you like your handwriting?: Depends on the day

Do you have any bad habits?: Tons, just dont remember them at the moment....12am people, gimme a break!

What is the compliment you get from most people?: I'm very sweet apparently, generally quite happy/pleasant to be around

If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Confusion, Drama and Love

What's your biggest fear?: Thats for me to know buddy.

Can you sing?: When I hit the right notes, sure

Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Wouldnt work anyways...so why try!?

Are you a loner?: In some ways, yes. for the most part, no (goin with lindz on this one)

What are your #1 priorities in life?: God, Family & Friends and my career (my pursuit of it at least)

If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Yea, as long as I wanted to be my friend back, Im not really that picky. lol...you care, then I care, you dont care, i'll learn not to care

Are you a daredevil?: some days (goin with lindz yet again)

Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: self esteem issues..(Lindz ur readin my mind, i dont like this)

Are you passive or agressive?: of those two....i'm not enough of just one of them to be considered one or the other. i'm both, and neither at the same time. i'm complicated ;-) (STOP COPYING ME LINDZ) :-D

Do you have a journal?: Yes online and a REAL one! Oh yea Im old fashion like that!

What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Thats a tad personal mister!

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Not being so hard on myself.

Do you think you are emotionally strong?: IN MY DREAMS! lol actually, im not that bad, im not easy to upset, but Im not the best at forgivin when you do...*shrugs* its a struggle of mine

Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: i have a few (ditto linz)

Do you think life has been good so far?: Reasonably, yea, not perfect, but cant complain too much really

What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Life isnt about being happy all the time. Its the times when you are cryin and feel at your lowest that teach you the most, and make those happy times so much better. You got to keep things in perspective. Things are never as bad as they seem. And to be honest, they are rarely as perfect as you remember then either. This is all part of life, its how its meant to be, always has and will be. Fighting it wont do anything but make you someone few people wanna be around. Accept it and enjoy it while you can.

What do you like the most about your body?: My hair/eyes...

And least?: inner thighs annoy me...*shrugs* and scars....

Do you think you are good looking?: Depends on the day...

Are you confident?: sometimes (goin with lindz)

What is the fictional character you are most like?: I dunno? Someone gimme an answer for this one?!

Are you perceived wrongly?: not generally

Do You...
Smoke?: No
Do drugs?: No
Read the newspaper?: Not often
Pray?: Yes!
Go to church?: Yes!
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Depends, rarely happens thu?!
Sleep with stuffed animals?: nope. i do like pillows to hug though.. (lindz ur scaring me now)
Take walks in the rain?: Depends?! Temperature, outfit and with whom?
Talk to people even though you hate them?: I dont hate anyone, but I do still talk to people I really dislike. Not good at being mean to people.
Drive?: EVERY CHANCE I GET! (at least in this weather)
Like to drive fast?: Not really...

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: Eh? its funny..ill give it that
Hurt yourself?: No
Been out of the country?: No
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Doubtful
Been in love?: Yes
Done drugs?: No
Gone skinny dipping?: No
Had a medical emergency?: Not yet
Had surgery?: sorta?
Ran away from home?: No
Played strip poker?: No
Gotten beaten up?: By my siblings
Beaten someone up?: Siblings
Been picked on?: Daily
Been on stage?: Yes
Slept outdoors?: Yes
Thought about suicide?: A lil too personal i think lindz :(
Pulled an all nighter?: YES!
If yes, what is your record?: Dont remember
Gone one day without food?: Morally opposed to the idea!
Talked on the phone all night?: Yes
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Naps, im a big cuddler....its easy to fall asleep lol
Slept all day?: Yes
Killed someone?: SHH DONT TALK TO LOUD THEY WILL HEAR!
Made out with a stranger?: um....well, one time at band camp...lol JK!
Had sex with a stranger?: NO NO NO
Thought you're going crazy?: Its a fact, not a theory
Kissed the same sex?: What kinda kiss?
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Only with Apriljuice! JK! Come on people?!
Been betrayed?: Oh yes
Had a dream that came true?: Sorta
Broken the law?: Not on purpose
Met a famous person?: Nope
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Ive killen them on purpose. Spiders are EVIL! KILL THEM ALL!
On purpose?: LOL I jumped the gun a bit eh?!
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: Well thats personal
Stolen anything?: Not that I remember?!
Been on radio/tv?: Yes
Been in a mosh-pit?: No
Had a nervous breakdown?: Quite often jk, not in a LONG time.
Bungee jumped?: HECK NO!
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Dont think so?

Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: Not really
Miracles?: Yes!
Astrology?: Nope
Magic?: I chose to believe!
God?: Yes!
Satan?: Yes. Not his biggest fan...grrr to satan
Santa?: Again, I chose to believe!
Ghosts?: You mean demons portraying themselves as people from the past...oh yes I believe in THOSE!
Luck?: Not really
Love at first sight?: Nope
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: Not really...sorta, like i said earlier, bad enhances the good...but it can exist without bad still. Its called HEAVEN!
Witches?: I believe their still are, i dont believe what they believe thu
Easter bunny?: No, hes a myth, SANTA IS REAL! But the bunny is all crap lol
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: VERY!
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: I chose to believe!
Do you wish on stars?: Yes!

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: Yes!

Do you think God has a gender?: No

Do you believe in organized religion?: Yes!

Where do you think we go when we die?: Heaven or Hell

Friends

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Yes

Who is your best friend?: April/Shana

Who's the one person that knows most about you?: April/Shana

What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Lots of it, too much to type at 1am

Your favourite inside joke?: too many to have one favorite (ditto Lindz)

Thing you're picked on most about?: My voice

Who's your longest known friend?: April, twenty years and countin baby!

Newest?: Jeanette, shes my april jr! LOVE HER!

Shyest?: Hrm..do I have any shy friends?! Have to go with Jason here...

Funniest?: April

Sweetest?: Tina/April

Closest?: April/Shana

Weirdest?: Tina

Smartest?: Shana, shes a nerd, i love her

Ditziest?: APRIL HANDS DOWN!

Friends you miss being close to the most?: Danielle and Jordan Ackerman! I miss you girls! Lindz (proctor) - we were never TIGHT but still, Hannah - miss ya doll, get better soon!, Shana - geologically speaking

Last person you talked to online?: Cyrous

Who do you talk to most online?: Cyrous and Johnny

Who are you on the phone with most?: Johnny (lately), April and Jon

Who do you trust most?: April, Shana

Who listens to your problems?: Phillip, Cyrous, Jon and Shana

Who do you fight most with?: Jason, here lately...

Who's the nicest?: Johnny & Cyrous

Who's the most outgoing?: Tina & Jeanette

Who's the best singer?: APRIL!

Who's on your s***-list?: don't have one of those (ditto lindz)

Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Wow, this survey gets weirder and weirder, what the heck?

Who's your second family?: Aprils' hands down

Do you always feel understood?: By certain people, a select FEW!

Who's the loudest friend?: Tina & Jeanette

Do you trust others easily?: Not anymore

Who's house were you last at?: In Jeanette neighborhood today, AT Phillips house sunday night/monday morning thu (was out past midnight, counts as monday morning :-P)

Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: My moms :) Um, my bf & Phillip/johnny

Love and All That

Do you consider love a mistake?: NEVER!

What do you find romantic?: Lots of things!

Turn-on?: Physically, arms and eyes (brown eyes are my thing now), otherwise, the list is LONG as mess! Ask me thu, ill give it to ya

Turn-off?: Arrogance

First kiss?: Patrick, kindergarden

If someone you had no interest in, had interest in dating u how would u feel?: flattered? (yes lindz, we agree)

Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: I'd rather do the mail order thing, that way if they dont work out, you can ship them back and get ur money back *grins*

Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: HECK NO! Then I might actually have to do it!!!! STOP SAYIN SUCH FILTH! GO WASH YOUR MOUTH OUT MISTER!

Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Sorta? Personality can over-ride such things

Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: SOME of them...I mean I HAVE dated a couple people....

What is best about the opposite sex?: Arms!!!!

What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: Ego

What's the last present someone gave you?: Bday presents, yea me turnin twenty! Go me! Go me!

Are you in love?: No

Do you consider your significant other hot?: Hes attractive, yes

Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: like id tell everyone
You wanted to kill?: Bianca
That you laughed at?: April & Jeanette
That laughed at you?: April & Jeanette
That turned you on?: Wow now...calm urself mister
You went shopping with?: April & Jeanette
That broke your heart?: Johnny
To disappoint you?: I wont say, they wouldnt take it well seein it on here
To ask you out?: Jon my bf
To make you cry?: Again, I wont say
To brighten up your day?: Lil boy at work yesterday
That you thought about?: Too many to list
You saw a movie with?: April
You talked to on the phone?: April
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Cyrous
You saw?: April
You lost?: Wow now! geeze man

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: its 1:27am for goodness sakes
Will it be with your significant other?: n/a
Or some random person?: n/a
What are you wearing right now?: jeans and a blue tank top
Body part you're touching right now:: my arm is touchin my leg?
What are you worried about right now?: Gettin up tomorrow, Hannah, life in general
What book are you reading?: The Catcher In The Rye
What's on your mousepad?: Thomas Kinkade picture
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: tired, pensive, achy, spacy but excited?!
Are you bored?: kinda
Are you tired?: Yes
Are you talking to anyone online?: Was, away message now, crazy Cyrous the pimp
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: Nope
Are you lonely or content?: a weird mixture of both
Are you listening to music?: Yes "Best of the 80's" from Walmart

Freaking Out

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 02:15:07 GMT

I asked: What are the odds you get sent to iraq after boot camp Johnny?
Johnny answered: very high

That was just to easy for him to say...I dont like that. I am wiggin out, and its not MY life that is in danger! Why isnt he more worried? What is it with this male ego need to act tough!? GRRRR!

__________________________________________________

Anyhoots. Life is eh?! Just a mess, total confusion. School is stressin me out. Work is stressin me out. Life in general is stressin me out. Im just a tad stressed at the moment I guess you could safely say. :( GRRRRRR!

Jeanette has been a GODSENT! She helps keep me sane! She doesnt even know how much I appreciate her, which is my own darn fault. I'm goin to have to say something/do something so she knows how awesome she has been. It's the least I can do.

Ive been spendin quite a bit of money lately. I need to chill out! I havent been balancing my checkbook regularly either. Im gettin bad :'( gracious

My head is spinnin, im just a mess right now. I can barely concentrate to write this down/type this out/WHATEVER! Gracious i need one SERIOUS professional massage. :(

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 04:27:33 GMT

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"reading and sat down in my chair. There were two" - The Catcher In The Rye

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?:
Almost reach the door...thats about it

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
The Rosanne Show (wasnt really watching, just let the TV on after The Cosby Show went off)

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
12:21

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
12:18

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
Silence...everyones alseep, lol and by everyone I mean my mom

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?:
Walkin Jon out. Well I didnt actually go out, I just stood at the door. Before that, the last time I stepped outside was leaving Church.

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
Email & AIM

9: What are you wearing?:
Jeans, and a button up shirt/cartagin(SP)..they are attached, if that makes any sense at all..

10: Did you dream last night?
Dont remember honestly...I know the preachers son was in it for some reason thu...

11: When did you last laugh?
Not too long ago. Less than twenty minutes

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?:
A wreath, clock, 14 pictures and a mirror.

13: Seen anything weird lately?:
Daily

14: What do you think of this quiz?:
Unique...I keep waiting for the point...like how is this going to be graded?

15: What is the last film you saw?:
The Recruit (sp? i cannot spell tonight, geeze)

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
Pay for college completely and get a Rav4 - gold with silver accents

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
If I haven't told you, I dont want you to know, or I dont remember that I havent told you. So hush

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
i'm not going to go with jason on this ("make sure everyone had the ability to hear the Gospel of Christ") because, Jesus will dont return until this is true...it will happen...we just dunno when?! I'd say, make sure they all are there with me in heaven when jesus does come back!

19: Do you like to dance?:
Sometimes (ditto Lindz)

20: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Emerald Rose

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
James Alexander

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
Yes! Ireland! I am in love with that country...

23: Will you pass on this survey?:
If people look at it, sure

Question?

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 04:03:03 GMT

Does anyone still use ICQ?!

Survey

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 23:17:53 GMT

I havent done one of these in forever! Feel free to join in and do one too :-)

HAVE YOU EVER...
Frenched a girl/guy u like? Yes
Been in love: Yes
Been so drunk u blacked out: Nope
Gone out in public in your pajamas: Yes
Missed school b/c it was raining: Yea, floods
Cheated on a B/F or G/F: Never
Kept a secret from everyone: Yes
Set a body part on fire: No
Had an imaginary friend: I had an imaginary dog when I was little that I was afraid of....
Called or seen a psychic: No
Ever cried at a chick Flick: Yes, regularly
Had a crush : Yes
Done something stupid to impress your crush: Said stupid stuff...but more out of nerves than attempting to impress..
Found a cartoon character attractive: Aladdin was kinda hot...lol dark mysterious...yea he was hot
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: Not really...its called a VCR people
Just stayed home: Yes
Prank called someone: Once or twice
Been on stage: Yes
Gotten in a car accident: Yes, stupid woman ran a stop sign and almost took me out today when I was goin to lunch, GRRRR
Made homemade fudge: Not yet...good idea thu
Seen the Eiffel Tower: I wish

FAVORITES
Type of sandwich: Depends: Peanut Butter or Turkey & Ham w/mayo on Italian Cheese and Herb bread
Coffee or hot chocolate: Hot chocolate, don't like coffee
Milk or chocolate milk: Regular Milk
Cold or hot: Hot, Summertime is the BEST! The beach, pools, bathing suits, actually having a tan!!! Looking forward to all these things!
Day or night: Night
Big or little: Dunno? Depends?! lol
Here or there: Everywhere!
Jeans or cords: Jeans
Wool or cotton: Cotton, wool itches too much
Stripes or solid: Depends
New or old: Depends

DO YOU..
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: Yes
Do you have a best friend: Yes
Who's your funniest friend: Tina/Jeanette
Who do you go to the mall with: Jason/Jon
Known the longest: APRIL! No contest
Whose parents do you know the best: I'll have to go with April again. They are like my second parents.
Who do you go to for advice: Mom, Phillip, Cyrous, Jason, April...
Who knows all your secrets: Gods the only one who wins this one
Who do you cry with: Mom, Phillip, April, Jason
Wear eye shadow: Yes
Have a dog: My dad does?!
Do you want a tattoo: Not really
Ever have the falling dream: YES
Have a computer in your room: Yes-sir-ree-bob
Have any regrets: Yes

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...
Cried: Almost did
Cut your hair: No
Worn a bathing suit: No
Bought something: Food...
Gone for a walk: Not really
Gone out for dinner: Yes
Said "I love you": Yes, to my momma...
Felt Stupid: Yes
Written a letter: No
Written a paper: No, but I will be soon
Written in a journal: My Livejournal. This is the third time
Watched your favorite movie: No
Had a serious talk: Remotely
Missed someone: Yes
Hugged someone: Yes
Had a nightmare: Dont remember my dream last night?!
Fought with someone: Yes, witch at work
Fought with your parent(s): No

What are you wearing right now: Work clothes. (Black slacks and a white collar shirt, took the vest off already)

ARE YOU...
Are you wearing pajamas: No
Are you tired: A bit
Are you hungry: Not much
Are you eating: Yes
Are you happy: Remotely
Are you talking to someone: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
God/Devil: Yes
Your friends: Yes
Aliens: No
Love: Yes
Destiny: Yes
Signs: Sorta
The Closet Monster: No
The Big Bang Theory: Yes, God said "Bang!" and BAM, there it all was :-D
One person for everyone: Yes
Government Conspiracies: Definitely. I am all about conspiracies...lol, I got loads of them. lol

GRRRRRRRR

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 22:55:58 GMT

Bianca is at it again.
This jerk chick at work is impossible. Shes so freakin mean! I dont get it?! Why would someone be so freakin mean?

ITS NOT LIKE IM MEAN TO HER!!! (well...until today!) I just straight got a tude with her today. No way around it. Im not gonna sit back and let her think that just because Im a nice person overall that she can walk all over me and treat me like I am dirt. BULL CRAP!!!!

And I repeat...

BULL CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She's just gonna have to get her tail knocked off this pedestal she thinks she is on. And I am totally game for being the one to do so! She has no idea what shes started. I dont play. You can only push me so far...Im not afraid to tell her like it is.

And if she keeps this crap up I will take it to the corporate level and let them know what Im dealing with. They dont play with people like her....when they know about them. Right now, shes slidin under their radar...but not for much longer. Heck no!!!

:-D!!

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 06:34:53 GMT

Today has been great. The weather could have been a LOT warmer for me, but oh well.

Church went pretty good. The kids were decent. I had nursery today. Lannie is my new favorite church kid. That girl is sooo much fun and so darn cute.

Saw Phillip today. He asked me to meet him at Plaza Azteca around three. So we hung out, talked, ate....it was awesome to see him again. Just awesome. Ive really missed him.

Dead tired...update more later....

Well well

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 05:42:00 GMT

I worked a twelve hour shift today. Eh! :'( LONG LONG DAY!

Jeanette and I made plans for more tanning. lol She found a place thats even cheaper....actually Kurt told her about the place his gf goes to, so we are gonna check that out. (Plus we have a coupon) lol

Havent talked to Jon since my bday...startin to worry about that boy lol

I have a million things to do and NO TIME to do them.

I need to put TWO checks in the bank.
Balance my checkbook (BADLY NEED TO DO THIS!!!)
Get an Easter outfit.
Also need to pay my cell phone bill soon...
Bla...bla...bla...bla

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Good news is, I talked to Johnny last night. That was awesome. I miss that boy :)

I'm OLD!

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 04:14:48 GMT

Im now twenty. The bday was fun. I got two free DP's at work and a dollar for subway cookies lol. I got money from my mom and a bunch of cute random stuff. And Kurn got me a gift certificate for jewelery and some bath stuff. AND she gave me Mr. Wonderful, who says ALL the right things, literally.

Jon gave me How To Lose a Guy in Ten Days, and we watched it. We also went to the mall and spent some of my Bday money.

Im a lil bit burnt lol. I went to a tanning bed today with my girl Jeanette. Then we went shoppin at the mall. It was awesome. Shes such a crazy Jersey Girl. lol Gotta love her. She's a hoot!

Im sure I'll think of more to ramble about later....but for now im shuttin up

Head is better...Not killin me anymore

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 04:48:07 GMT

Im still dead tired though. I was on my feet for 7+ hours today.....dang registers. I feel like Ive been demoted being put as a cashier. Geeze

I turned in an EXTREMELY rough excuse of a rough draft this afternoon...*prays her professor doesnt eat her alive for it* (He said sumthings better than nuttin?! Let's see if he really meant it....lol)

My cousin Jake has a baby girl now. (Well she was born in December actually) They are living with my grandmother for a few months, so I'm hoping to get to see her finally tomorrow when I get off work. Everyone keeps tellin me how adorable she is! Im so jealous! I wanna play with her too! lol
(Btw, shes givin Kurn baby fever....hehe)

Lifes okay, nuttin exciting goin on other than that. I'm gonna go eat some pizza now. Peace out homies

Well well

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 05:11:46 GMT

My head is KILLING me! Geeze! I'm so outta it today. I cant seem to keep my head on the ground....dont mean that in a movie/fairy tale sense...moreso the spaced out kinda way. Its weird....dunno if that made any sense at all?!

Random thoughts: Totally into Maroon5! BUY THE ALBUM! Josh Kellys good too....

American Idol news: Not loving too many of the people this year. Granted I came into the scene halfway thru last season...but still...no Clay Aiken this time around. Im diggin the Pen Salesmen, the football guy is fun...but not SUPERB and the Frank Sinatra dude is fun, I'm likin him too. I like the Lauren Hill chick, and the quiet girl...she sang first last show. Dont remember her name. But shes really good. (She's a wedding singer....?! that help anyone?! doubtful im sure)

People UPDATES:
Phillip's workin nights at Riverside, so I dont see/talk to him much.:( But he is now officially an uncle of an ADORABLE lil baby boy. (Dylan Chase is his name) He's soooo freakin cute!!! Oh my gracious.

Johnny's goin the military. Im so excited for him. I think this is going to be an amazing experience for him! I've been prayin he'd do this for years now.

Jason's still being a punk. Rarely hear from him, havent seen him in forever. NERD! lol Nuttin but luv thu man.

Jon's sick. (or as I would say, he's dying) And goin outta town for the weekend....which means im outta plans....HINT HINT JASON! lol

Ben's in Louisianna (sp)...we are finally cool/no weirdness anymore. His sister is gettin married this summer. He's got a cycle now too!

Shana's still in FL. Talked to her the other day. Shes the best.

Tina's crazy as ever. We really need some girl bonding. Theres a lotta drama we need to talk about (not between us two)...that kinda hinders some of the fun.

April's a hoot. Love her. She never calls thu. I need to beat her up again, kick her butt into gear. Hrm...

Nuttins on TV. This stinks! GRRR Im bored.

GRRR!!

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 01:01:57 GMT

This complete PRICK cussed me out on the phone at work today. He was mad that his phone order wouldnt go through because his address didnt match his card. He's the retard that moved and didnt change the address they have filed on his credit card account. BUT NOOO, its MY fault and I needed to be cussed out. PRICK!!!!!!!!! I was soo mad. AND of course I cried, because thats what ANY extreme/strong emotions do to me. It was soo messed up! JERK!!! GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted to kick him lol. (its soo not funny, why am I laughing)

I know its not unusual for people to cuss when they get pissed off. But seeing as how I DONT, and its NOT MY FAULT HES TOO STUPID TO CHANGE HIS ADDRESS WHEN HE MOVED, I just didnt expect that kinda crap. I was raised to have more respect for people than that...I guess Im a rare breed now-a-days. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

The guys at work were ready to beat him down though. lol Zach already told me he's gonna be waiting for the guy to come pick up his order and him and Jeremiah are gonna jump him for being so rude. lol If only he actually could do something like that! Maybe he could knock some of the stupid outta that man! (yea right, Zachs a strong guy....but hes not strong enough to knock enough of that mans stupid out, that will be evident at least. *sigh*)

Happy Birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeee!

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 02:11:27 GMT

(In a week at least!) I'm going to be twenty!! Thats sooo weird! Im feelin old...

Today was good. I should have went to bed sooner...but I was up talkin to someone about some important stuff that was worth the trouble I had gettin up today.

I worked. It was fine. I finished a planogram. Yipee...nothing fancy. Kinda boring.

We ordered pizza on the company for lunch though. Thats always cool. It was really greasy but it was still good. I ended up eating with Kurt (in charge of interviews and such), Dale (assistant manager), Mike (use to be my supervisor, now just an associate like me...of his own choice) and Geoff (furniture supervisor, stand in manager at times). That was interesting. Me and a bunch of total he-man acting guys. Good thing Im not a weak stomach kinda gal...Dale can make eating pizza really nasty looking lol. Meanwhile, Geoff was busy inhaling helium and paging Grace, that was hilarious!! Mike and Kurt were just being themselves, total goofballs. And then there was me :)
I got off at three. So I can home and took a nap. That was well needed. We went to Boston Market for dinner (yuuuum). Now im going to try to make myself go study, since I didnt do it at all over spring break and I have a test and quiz tomorrow!!!

EXHAUSTED!

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 21:13:44 GMT

Well my genius self decided to stay up till 3:30 am talkin online when I KNEW I had to get up at 7:30 am! :( So I'm BEAT! We had a fashion show at work today for the spring clothes and my baby girl Ashlynne was in it. She was too cute! (I videotaped it too!) I'm SOOO glad I dont have to actually go into work today! I can go take a nap now!!!! YEA!!! I might add more to this later...who knows, but for now
SWEET DREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!

MORE:
Well my nap was wonderful! I really needed it!!!!!! Im so sad spring break is now over...I feel like I didnt get a break at all though! I worked almost the entire time!! :'( Oh well. I'll deal!

Cool Lyrics

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 05:45:38 GMT

Won't deny everything can't last
But it's closing in so fast
Thought that I'd figured it out at last
But you can't change the past

Waking up this morning
Thinking this can't be real
But they say there is nothing love can't heal
Why don't you come on down
So you can feel what I feel

I know what to say but don't know where to begin
The fear of losing you beneath my skin
Is there resolution for this pain that I'm in

If only you could feel what I dream
Maybe you could hear what I mean
There is nothing gone
But there's something missing

Baby, don't go telling me we're over
When you know you're my one and only lover
And I won't go saying that we're OK when we're
Lost without each other
'Cause we're lost without each other

I didn't mean to start the last big fight
You never should have hung up that night
All I want to do is make things right
Make it right
Listen, with all the choices that we chose to make
And all the promises we chose to break
We were busy making big mistakes, yesterday

I can tell you one thing
We're not better on our own
I'm tired of running from my feelings

Well I just can't seem to pity
'Cause my heart's to numb to feel
And the smile does all the talking
Though the pain is all that's real
With the way that you keep screaming
I can hardly hear to think
And I feel the bridges burning
Underneath my feet

I just want to stay dreaming
No I just don't want to wake
Why can't we keep on sailing
Across this emerald lake
My forehead is still bleeding
From the thorns I used to wear
And I'm left alone and beaten
For this cross I choose to bear

Well the voices fall like timber
And the fear it pours like rain
And my heart is crushed to cinders
Underneath this kind of pain
Well there is no resolution
When the revolution's dead
So I'm left with no solution
For the voices in my head

So small, yet still so proud
At night before he dreams he looks into the clouds
A high flyer's what I want to be
Seems they won't let me, says I'm too small
I don't feel small at all

Break my dreams, that's what they'll do
Well I'm going to run away and learn to fly like you
I'm going to go so high and swoop so low
You can't bring me down, going to be so proud

Push and shove then climb aboard
This is the shuttle train to the top of the world
When you look around what do you see
These are all high flyers
But none of these high flyers look like me

I pull my way up through this crowd
To find your body crushed on the ground
It's so obvious, why couldn't you see
That you can't go high flying without a pair of high-flyer wings

Liquid, melancholy dreams
Tell me what it means
'Cause you drive me crazy
Driftwood, won't you float me down your stream
Tell me what it means

Don't go looking in my eyes tonight
Don't go telling me lies tonight
Don't go promising the skies tonight
When you're crazy
'Cause you're crazy beautiful

Listen, all I need is you
Won't you tell me what to do
'Cause you drive me crazy
Baby, is it pulling on you heart
Is it tearing you apart

I was holding on, now I'm letting go
This is nothing more than a picture show
Everything I knew now I hardly know
Busy keeping less never getting more

One more nickel dime I'm out the door
This kind of life I can't afford

Can't put my mind at ease with the words I say
Trying to get myself to get out of my way
Birds in the trees just make me depressed
Seeing sunny skies, feeling emptiness

Layers of lies just seem to fold
This kind of life is all I know

Murder wears a friendly smile
Like the perfect end in a plastic vial
No pain
Sorry I can't seem to stay
But this bird was meant to fly away
Fly away, fly away

~*~Kimberly~*~

Good Days

Welp...

Yea!

Bad taste

Dream

Time for Humor

Fill This Out

WOW Lindz

Freaking Out

Question?

Survey

GRRRRRRRR

:-D!!

Well well

I'm OLD!

Head is better...Not killin me anymore

Well well

GRRR!!

Happy Birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeee!

EXHAUSTED!

Cool Lyrics

~~Kimberly~~